8 Weeks

The summer is coming to an end and I feel a little bummed about Natalie going back to school. Okay, I feel quite a bit bummed. I want her to get out of the house and socialize and learn but I sure will miss having her at home with me. Granted, we don't get to do as much as we did last summer and I feel bad at times but she is happy and has fun. She can still struggle with following directions the first 14 times I ask and can get an attitude when things don't go her way but she is such a good kid. She is so freaking funny. I can't even explain fully, she just is silly and witty and has a good sense of humor (unless I poke fun at her, then she gets sensitive). I enjoy our conversations and how mature she seems when talking about things.

Vanessa is 8 weeks old today and the absolute sweetest. She is so smiley and chatty and cuddly. I literally have to keep her strapped to me all day for her to nap and hold her in my arms at night. I'm not crazy about the night time thing only because I am concerned about the safety of it. I looked into getting a breathing monitor for her but that tracks movement and if she's in bed with me it will pick up on my motion, hence giving a false reading. She loves being held and talked to and gets bored fairly easily. I actually hold her all day, or put her down and talk to her. Her eating and sleeping is still all over the place. She definitely is the gassiest baby. Poor girl has belly pains often and fusses, part of the reason I think she likes being held and upright so much. Natalie is the perfect big sister to her and absolutely adores her. I just love and adore these girls so so much.

I am feeling good. I've been taking Zoloft for two weeks now. I am not sure it's actually had an affect on me yet or not. I can tell you I felt so good the first day I took it and have since. Everything I read and the doctor said it takes weeks for it to start working, so perhaps it is just a placebo effect.  Either way so far so good. Physically I feel awesome too! I've lost 35 lbs and am trying to take better care of myself overall.