Pampered Mama

I woke up at 3 in the morning today thinking labor might be beginning. I had some stomach pains and needed to use the bathroom, which is how labor with Natalie began (in addition to my water breaking first). I thought for sure my system was cleaning itself out and contractions would follow suite. I was so excited by the idea of labor starting that I had to force myself back to sleep. 

Alas nothing happened but my system isn't exactly back to normal. I have read loose movements could be a sign labor will start soon, or it could be weeks away. I think it's because of the hormone that causes your joints to loosen and pelvis to open up to make way for baby. My hips and thighs have been aching along with my pubic bone. It makes it really hard to get out of bed and Saturday night I was in a lot of pain. I was worried if that pain lasted I wouldn't be able to walk the next day. That kind of onset the feeling of desperately wanting labor to move along and now I have been wanting it to start for the last few days. I wasn't in a hurry before at all. I was in no rush to experience the pain of child birth but now I just want to get it over with and the thought of it happening soon is driving me crazy. I know it will start soon, as in the by the end of next week so I need to just take my mind off it. I hate feeling like I'm just wishing time away. 

Today was such a good day despite not giving birth. Matt purchased a prenatal massage for me for our anniversary but nothing was available until today, which is perfect because my birthday is in two days so it was an early birthday gift. I wondered how awkward it would be to be naked under a sheet with a stranger rubbing on me at nine months pregnant, but it was fine. They even included a face mask and foot scrub. I felt so pampered and spoiled and taken care of and loved. Then I came home on a natural high and cozied up and took a nap before Natalie came home from school, took her to the playground, cooked dinner and then we spent some family time together working on an activity book before bed. There are so many good and happy moments to soak up in daily life! I am the luckiest woman, I swear.