Blink of an Eye

When Natalie was just a few days old I could barely look at her without crying. I was overwhelmed with happiness and sadness alike.

Happiness for the obvious reasons. Sadness possibly due to hormones but also because I knew exactly how quickly time was going to go by and I desperately wanted to delay her growing up.

I wrote a hand written note to her when she was eight days old.

I've never shared it on here before. Honestly I kinda forgot about it until a couple days ago when I was looking for a piece of paper to make a list of things I need for her first birthday party.

12/12/11

Dear Natalie Mae,                                                                                                                         

"This past week has flown by. I completely understand why moms say, "They grow so fast." As cliche as it is, it is so true. You have been an absolute dream. Daddy and I have spent every day awing over you. Every hiccup, sneeze, or burp gets a reaction from us. Daddy is particularly amused by your loud farts. You are such a sweet baby. You seem so patient and don't cry much at all, not even during diaper changes or sponge baths. I wish I could hit a pause button and enjoy this stage with you longer. I know every milestone you hit will make me more and more proud. We feel so lucky to have you and to be your parents. I often get emotional when looking at you. I just can't believe how beautiful you are. Daddy is kind of over protective of you already. He wants the absolute best for you (as do I) and treats you as if you as if you're made of glass. He loves holding you on his chest and patting your back. I love holding you in my arms and kissing your teeny little nose. We can't get enough quality time with you and I feel complete. Life has never been better. I've never felt happier and things have never been this perfect. Even if you aren't always so laid back and easy that won't change our love for you. I never want to want to forget this first week with you. Your smell, smile, the cute little sucking noise you make as soon as the bottle hits your lips, the way you desperately search for something to eat when I burp you between feedings. I love everything about you. I look forward to each day with you. Just grow a little slower please!"

And then I blinked my eyes and almost an entire years gone by.