The Sweetest Thing

 I may have decided on a cake. I like to keep it classy (wedding wise, at least) and think this cake is beautiful and elegant. We definitely don't need a four tier cake, however, so taking the bottom part off would save us some money. It may be the picture but I think the frosting/fondant looks tinted a little yellow and would ask for that to be cream/ivory. As for the cake topper I like the flowers a lot but they might add a tad too much oomph. I was thinking either lessening the bouquet to something smaller or doing an initial cake topper (which would be the letter p). I am not a huge fan of the plastic bride and groom topper, even with all the modified versions to choose from: bride fishing groom by his pants,bride dragging groom by collar, bride on grooms back, couple playing a sport, etc.Neither of us are huge sweets fans so we haven't talked about the kind of cake it's going to be. I think either chocolate (can't go wrong) or red velvet would suit most peoples taste buds. Anyway, most people will probably be too drunk to even care how it taste!

Today is Tuesday

And there is no clever caption I have for this.

This weekend we booked our DJ, videographer and most excitedly honeymoon! Since we already act like an 80 year old couple, a cruise seemed fitting for us. I am really looking forward to taking a nice week long trip and seeing some new sights while relaxing. We booked our DJ and videographer through a site call thepros.com which offers really great prices. The downfall to using them is that they do not offer the option of actually meeting your vendor before your wedding. You simply select a package, tell them a little about your taste, they give you a few options and you pick the person that sounds the best. I know it's a bit risky but unless someone has an insanely obnoxious personality that is intolerable I think it should be okay so long as the professional knows what they're doing and does a good job. It's not like meeting with them in person before deciding would make them any better at what they do. If they're good, they're good regardless. If not, then it sucks to be us. There are still a lot of things we need to knock off our list and I am so nervous about everything. Even if our wedding day is a cluster fuck like we both have a feeling it will be, I am still going to be married to the sweetest man I know!

This Might Be Why People Call Me Bitter

A generally agreed upon belief is that if you don't trust the person you're with then you shouldn't marry them. An even more popular belief is that a man should have a stripper at his bachelor party. People like to combine the disbelief of a bride not wanting her groom to have a stripper at his bachelor party as the woman not trusting her man. Not only is the concept of ogling another woman while she takes her clothes off the night before your wedding wrong and disrespectful to your fiancee, but to objectify yourself as a piece of ass and take your clothes off for money is sad and degrading. To get to that point in life means you probably made some bad choices. Maybe things were your fault, maybe it was the hand you were dealt. Maybe you once were in love with someone who hurt you and this is your way of retaliating. Maybe your parents weren't there. Maybe you're a single parent with no financial help.I cannot judge you completely and categorize you as someone who is shallow and emotionally empty (that's exactly what I'm implying) but chances may be that self respect isn't at the top of your priority list and you would rather sacrifice dignity for a little bit of cash. I know I can be more modest with my views on some subjects but in no way am I prude or overly conservative. I am speaking very generally about the moral sentiments of society that I feel are not up for debate. Respect should always come first and foremost. I know it's traditional for some people to act out in in an alcohol induced frenzy on their final night as a "single" soul. I have no issues with drinking and having a good time (read: closet alcoholic) but the expectation that your last night out with friends is some sort of license to do as you please is all wrong. It's a shame how dishonorable people become when the bar for proper behavior is lowered by such a great deal. It's also a shame what little respect some have for themselves. Again, this is in no way related to my personal relationship or personal life. Just personal opinions and insights.

Four Month Old Baby in Japan

Though I am several thousand miles from Japan and even further from being a journalist/reporter I wanted to take the time and share an uplifting story and tiny glimmer of hope from a country in such a tragic plight. Surrounded by remains of homes and bodies, a baby girl was heard crying amongst the debris. On March 11th she was literally removed from her parents arms by a tidal wave and had been missing ever since. My first thought when I was reading the report was, "I can't imagine how many people are going to want to adopt this little baby." I kept reading on and it only got better: both her parents survived too! They were reunited and though there is a long road to recovery I cannot imagine what gratitude they feel to the men and miracle that saved their precious child. She doesn't even look like she has a scratch on her and I can't fathom how she made it and appears to be in such great condition but it is certainly a great story!

I Need Therapy.

Eleven weeks until ones wedding is enough reason to start getting nerve racked but add into the mix a long list of things to get done and you have a recipe for a jittery bride. I am going to admit that I have started to feel the pressure. No one has really urged me to get on the ball, which I do appreciate, but my sisters have now let me know there are things to get done and not much time left before the big day, which I may appreciate more. I can't seem to make a decision on anything. I had my sister purchase her bridesmaid dress which was a simple black one from Davids Bridal and now I am thinking I made the wrong choice (and feeling pretty awful about making her spend money on something I am unsure of, but I will buy if back from her if we don't use it)! I saw someone else post a picture of dress number one on their blog and I fell in love!My bridesmaids aren't six feet tall and five pounds light, so I don't know if that dress is a good option or not. Dress number two is alright but I am not sold. I am just altogether uncertain of any attire agreement and can't picture all this coming together. If I do go with a floral print dress then should I change the black suits and general color combo (black and green)? It's driving me even more insane!

Edit: Below is the black dress I very confidently told my sister to buy. A very simple dress yet somehow one of my (very picky) bridesmaids hates it. It doesn't get more generic than this. I also added in a picture of where the ceremony will be held. It will be in late May about six o'clock in the evening.

Random Ramblings

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?
No, I can't say that I do. I know it sounds cynical to say there is no such thing as "fate" but I can't help my beliefs.

If you could go anywhere in the world, where would you go?
I would love to travel if I weren't afraid of flying (and everything else). I think I would want to travel back to Italy, maybe for the honeymoon. When I first went as a teenager I didn't appreciate it to it's fullest. 

What time did you wake up today?
Nine-ish 

Why aren't you dating the last person you texted?
Because she is my sister and that would be incest. That's the ONLY reason.


Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn't want to be with?
No, I am a troll and jump on any opportunity with any guy that shows the slightest bit interest.

What were you doing at 4am this morning?
Sleeping like any respectable adult who has a job in the morning.

Do you miss anyone?
My babies (nieces).

What do you think of your last kiss?
 I think he is a sweetheart and maybe a keeper. ;-)

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
No, it wasn't that kind of kiss, perv.  

Anyone you would like to get things straight with?
Hmm... you bet. Too bad I never have the courage for confrontation. 

Do you think you're wasting your time on the person you like?
Yeah. Do you think he will ever pop the question?

Did you do something mean to someone today?
No. I am not in high school anymore.

You see your ex and he/she tells you he misses you & you say?
 Blank stare and walk away. No reason to talk to exes.

You find out your ex is having a kid with someone you don't like, you say?
 That is never, ever, ever, ever something I would be concerned with. Ever.

What does your hair look like now?
Like it's in a bun.

Who all did you text today
David, Brittany, Courtney. I'm sure that means a lot to whoever reads this, right?

Will you be single over winter?
No! I will not be single the rest of my life come May! :) :)

Has someone ever made a promise to you and broke it?
Never. Everyone I have ever met in my entire life has been a completely honest, straight forward and trust worthy person who stays true to their word. What kind of question is this? Of course people have broken their promise to me!!!

How often do you say sorry?
All too often. Wish I would stand up for myself more and stop apologizing for shit that isn't my fault.

Where is the person you last kissed at this moment?
Down in our living room.

What do the majority of people in your life call you?
"Your names Sean? Like a boy? Why isn't it spelled S-H-A-W-N? Is that a typo?" That's what they call me.

Think of the last person you said I love you to, did you mean it?
No, I only said it cause I'm marrying him.

Where is the person you gave your heart to for the first time?
I am marrying him. No joke, he's my first true love and I am blessed.

It's 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it?
Someone with a good explanation. 

Last person you talked to for more than an hour?
I can't talk to anyone in this world for more than an hour. Things get awkward and painful (at least for me). Sorry.

When was the last time you were out of state for more than a day and why?
Christmas 2010 in NJ with Matts family because it was Christmas.

Anything good happening tomorrow?
Not work, that's for sure.

If you could move somewhere else, where would it be?
No where! I love where we're at! Love our house and community and all. Even when we have our first baby (hopefully very soon) we still can stay here until number two because it is just perfect for three.

So, I'm Slow

Okay, so I am a little late on this game other bloggers are playing but here goes! I have been itching to post a picture of my ring so this is perfect!

             (I would post a picture of it on my finger, but I badly need a manicure!)

Did you look at rings together?

Yes, of course. Most couples now-a-days talk about marriage and getting engaged before the man purchases a ring and we certainly are no exception.

Do you like your ring? Did you from the beginning?...and be honest!

I love my ring. Picking it out was a difficult process because there are so many options out there! I get so many compliments on it and know it's a classic ring that I will love for the rest of my life.

How often do you wear your rings?

Well, right now I only have the engagement ring but I wear it every day but take it off to shower and sleep. When I was little and asked my grandma about her ring she told me it was something she never took off and I literally thought I would never, ever take mine off when I got married. It's not a sentimental thing but a comfort thing for when I don't wear it. I actually feel naked with out it on I'm so used to it.

Do you clean your rings?

Again, only one ring for now. I have it cleaned anytime I'm in the mall with a jewelry store in it. It always looks so shiny afterward!

What went through your mind the very first time you saw your ring?

                           I don't know my exact thoughts but I am pretty sure I was at least slightly indecisive.

Saturday Recap

Though we can go on "dates" any time we would like since we are a childless couple, that does not change the fact that in our spare time we love just hanging out at home so we seldom go out. After we went to lunch today we went to the movies to see Unknown and it was nice to get out of the house to go sit in a large, dark room with complete strangers. I will spare you the rest of the boring details of today (Target, laundry and cleaning) but as far as wedding planning goes: we signed the contract with our photographer so yay for us! I was really apprehensive about booking a photographer but she is awesome at what she does and is super nice too. Anyway, the rest of the night will be wine filled so we'll see tomorrow if there's anything interesting to post! Hope you have a more eventful weekend than I.

Think Outside the [Shoe] Box

Happy March 1st everyone! Not much more time until spring is here! Maybe the season soon to be changing is what has made me feel like stepping outside my bubble of traditional planning (or maybe my sisters) but the idea of colored shoes has implanted itself in my brain. Particularly pink shoes are on my mind though my first vision was of classic ivory lace shoes to match my dress. Now I am beginning to go with the trendy perspective and want some color. Below are some examples of what I am considering!

I haven't fully committed myself to this idea but I am pretty confident. I don't know if I want to do a  hot pink like most of the pictures above or a more muted, softer version like the last photo which is more my personality. I am not a "look at me" kind of girl which is why I would totally play up my shoes (no one will really see them) and it kind of excites me to do something so bold (at least bold for me)!